Chorus
Contemplating the end of my life
While the new year is born
Cos I'm all alone

... And it's all by choice

People try and help me
But I push them away
Leaving them none the wiser
All because I'm ...

Chorus

My heart needs someone to keep it alive
But it's not getting who it wants
It's not happy with who it is
And it's not happy with where it is
In this game that we call life
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Feeling Lonely
The only direction I can send my feelings
Are onto this blank piece of paper
Why, oh why, is this my life?
Why, oh why, can't I deal with it?

Chorus

Nothing goes right for me
When I want something
I always mess it up, it's just who I am
What I've become, I can't think of why
I should keep going on
-
Nothing goes wrong for me
I get a lot of what I want
My life is comfortable as it is
I can decide my destiny
If I just keep going on

Chorus

You're just covering up
What's really going on
Material possesions are nothing
When you emotions can't handle
The emptyness inside
What is the point
If there is no chance of happiness?
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You're just looking at the side
That you want to see
There will always be sadness
And happiness in a life
The empty heart will be filled
But everything takes time
There will be a chance of happiness!

Chorus

The poison in my mind and in my eyes
Is killing me from the inside
I want to end it all now
I want to start all over again...

Notes: A depressing battle against myself all caused by just one little thought. It's frightening to see what some of my ideas grow into